Section 5.33: He Would Beat Me Now and Then

Section 5.33: He Would Beat Me Now and Then

Chetna says:

I am a Brahmin girl living with my mother.

My maternal grandparents, a hard-core Brahmin, brought me up. I began my Sanskrit education at home and was then sent to a Gurukul. I studied the Vedas, Upanishads and the Shastra. I always followed a satvik life and stayed at bay from non-veg, drinks, smoking, onions, garlic and other tamsic food. As a kid, I learnt to respect every animal, insect and plant and the panch tatva. My family never bought anything made of leather! We follow SHAIVISM and I am immensely in love with Lord Shiva, He is every thing to me!

Few years back I met a Muslim guy and we fell in love. He was always religious but in the beginning he was tolerant and we both used to share things about our religion. He use to take me to temples and eventually after 1 year we got married as per Hindu rights in the presence of a pandit, my mother and his friends. From here began our story of physical involvement (he is the only man who I ever have been physically involved with and that too after marrying him before Lord Shiva).

Soon I realized that this marriage meant nothing to him and may be it was just a way to get me into his bed. After 2-3 months of marriage he began to force me to convert to Islam. This was forbidden for me!!! The first shock that came my way was when he began taking me to marriages and parties. I could not eat anything. It was just beef, meat etc. (oh my God!) I had never seen all of this. Second shock that struck me was that he wanted me to cover my head 24×7.

I soon became dependent on him for every little thing and did whatever he said. I began reading the Koran, covered my head and used no make up, etc. But I refused to eat meat and leave my satvik life style. My son (dog) is the most important thing to me… more important than myself. I love him the way any mother would love his child. I realized soon he and his family wanted me to separate my son (the dog) from me. I objected because I could never understand their objections despite reading the Koran.

We began having fights over religion. He would insult my religion and idols etc., even wearing a teeka (head dot) would create issues. He began making faces every time I would even use a little bit of Sanskrit. I thought of giving in and decided to convert… for me my heart matters and that will always be ruled by Lord Shiva. I converted and tried every bit to make him happy but not sacrificing on my basics of sattva guna, mother and goofy (my dog). I have always been a Hindu at heart. I am very tolerant and sensitive.

He knew my love for Lord Shiva and knew that I would die but will surely fast on Shivratri. After conversion this was my first Shivratri. True to what he thought, I fasted. He followed me on that day and the moment he saw me at a temple he thrashed me to death. From here began his beating. Now he would beat me every now and then.

I soon began feeling suffocated and one fine day, I told him that I can’t act anymore and that I’m happy in my own religion. We had a huge fight. Finally after a month he got back. But for two years my life became a living hell. He would talk nothing but Islam and tell me how people who do not follow the book (the Koran) will be punished etc. Later, we had a huge fight as he came over to my house… and got mad at the puja that my mom and I were performing.

We broke up for 3 months, and we got back later, and again broke up. —Chetna

Chetna added (two months later):

Dear Admin, Satyen and all others,

Today I am leading a very happy and stable life. I am lucky; later things moved fast and in my favor. However, this would not have been possible without the support of InterfaithShaadi and all of you. Especially without Satyen Bhai, who has always been there and Admin who has been truly kind. LOVE. —Chetna